Couldn't bring myself to blog yesterday night. Waking up early for school after such a long holiday just killed me. Wed night is simply...a lesson learnt.
It would be a while before i head down to club. Have to detox my body...
I was at dbl O with joel and caline. I was contended with sipping on my vodka ribena while the other two gals were downing shots. I vehemently refused to drink wif them. Somehow, the terrible vomiting incident the last time i was there just haunts me. I cant even take the smell of vodka neat. Conjures up my intestines man.
After that as planned, we headed down to Zouk. Haven been there on a wed night for awhile. It must have been one of the packest wed night i have ever seen at Zouk in a loooong while. The dance floor was simply PACKED. How can anyone dance, much less move, there?!!?
Met a million and one familiar faces.
To sum it up. Chloe had alcohol poisoning while joel, caline and me simply had a terrible hangover the next morning.
Anyway, doubt i would have the time anymore once school fully kicks in next week.
I finally got down to watchin The O.C. yah yah...slow right?even Ch 5 is gonna finish airing it already. Oh well, managed to get most of the episodes downloaded..so yah...pardon me if i get excited or emotional over what the whole world has already known. This week is really slack. No texts to read up, cos simply I have not bought them!hah...just can't face reality. Think I will only get my books next week. Bleah...The girls (joel, chloe and caline) and me are goin partyin somewhere tmw night(actually its later tonight since its past 12)!!It would be like a farewell thingy...farewell to our holidays...and after this week, IT would all start AGAIN. My parents would be flyin off for their holidays next week. For almost 2 weeks. I would be ALL A-L-O-N-E! Not that I'm not used to it already. Have been a latchkey child since...I started school. Meals are always eaten alone. No one greets me and ask me how was my day when I step in my house. No one to talk to. No one to ring the bell for (sometimes i do ring it still even tho i very well know no one is in there!).Some call it FREEDOM, but for me it is SOLITUDE.
finally had time to post this pic up. A gift from Sam. What a darling he is at times.
Met up with chloe and caline in town after school today. Couldn't resist and bought myself a pair of pointed mules. Just so lovely and cheap.
Talked about many issues with the gals today. Marriage and all.
We indulged in super sinful deserts at Coffee Club. Totally hilarious time. Technically we ate 2 brownies and 1 mudpie but paid only for 1 brownie and 1 mudpie. We kindda swindled them off one free brownie cos we found a really INSIGNIFICANT strand of hair in our first brownie! We totally acted disgusted and all, so they had no choice but to give us a new plate! Also we asked for more fudge on our mudpie and they totally sink our mudpie in it! It seems like we ordered fondue with mudpie or perhaps the soup of the day was chocolate fudge. It true!No exaggeration here. I will post the pics one day when i get it. It is just so great being girls sometime!
Is marriage really the end to freedom?
Are we too young to start dating for marriage now if we would only intend to wed at 28 or later?
I think so.
WE think so too.
School's starting again for me tmw.
Dun feel like blogging any stuff these days...writer's block?
Mixed feelings abt it this time round. Used to be plain hatred, boredom, and nothing but apathetic feelings about it, but this time round, its joy, relief , anticipation and of course the inevitable dread. Perhaps, finally... I won't have time to go beserk due to superfluous free time, and I would just like to get over and be done with the sucky Accountancy course. I cant believe i'm even attending the first lectures of the semester!Hope i can keep this goin till the end of the semester. Get myself some much needed As and hopefully put myself back in league for at least a 2nd Lower Honours.
Slept right tru this morning...dunno wats wrong...the alarm just couldn't wake me up for church. It's really time to start tuning my body clock back. Gone are the days where i wake in the noon and sleep in the early morning.
Love never fails. But where there are propheccies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.
1 Corinthians 14:1
Its not that you are not giving enough, Its not that I do not notice your small acts of love,and its not that you did not play your part,But its just because i'm tired. We see each other everyother day, but are we really together?Your mind seem miles away, and your eyes just tell a different story.And me?I'm just tired. Tired of asking whats on your mind.Tired of asking you about your work.Tired of finding out about your latest contract.Tired of being dismissed as irrational.So I just give up and follow the motion. Now I'm exposed. I can no longer hide behind that curtain of pretense.You ask me wats wrong.But i just can't bear to say it to your face.Perhaps we both need a break.
super duper bloated. Haven stuffed myself for a long time already.
One topic poped up often during the bbq. Orientation. Hall orientation to be specific.
I for one condemn hall FOCs. I never joined a single one nor been in the committee of any too. Having been in 2 diff halls, and i still get along just fine. I'm not ostracised, nor outcasted. All that "they" say would happen to me if i DIDN'T join the camp did not happen as threatened. In fact, i get along just as happily as anyone of those who were "tortured". Hall FOCs is just a whole lot of crap tts all.
THANKS LYNN FOR ALL THE WORK! Just drives me even more to the edge of resorting to slimming pills.
Frankly, i tink they are all mindless and senseless activities organised just to satisfy the sadistic minds of the seniors. Ok, they would most prob encourage and urge freshies to join the camp on the pretext of smoother assimilation and wider circle of friends...but really, underneath all the sugar coating is nothin more than nonsensical torture. Its a vicious cycle. The senoirs were tortured previously when they were freshies, therefore, now they have to get back and torture the freshies...and the cycle continues disguised as a tradition.
me, lester and sam at Sushi Tei...simply delicious!
check out the map in Lester's BMW 7 series! way cool.
fashion victim...again.
fashion victims
Had a smashing day wif Lester and my dearie. Have some pics to show since i happen to have my cam wif me today.
Spiderman was not too bad(I hate to admit it tho!). Was kindda coerced into watching it by the guys....OK, the next show we watch tog has to be sth really girly!I DUN CARE!!LETS WATCH MEAN GIRLS! mhuahaha......
ok, let me digress a little. The sushi at Sushi Tei is superb. Its really 10times better than Sakae. I would say its value for money. I cant deny that the price is higher...but its really only slightly higher. Even the wasabi taste so much better. I know my frens reading these would be rolling their eyeball thinking: Here she goes again, exaggerating like there's no tmw! FINE! Go try it for urself and you will know wat u have been missing out. Let me quote caline, its like A short trip to heaven!
Looking tru the pics i took today, i was reminded of some issues. I was on the train this aftnoon and was greeted by a grosteque sight. Check out the pics above. These are pics of some people wif pathetic dress sense. It is not the first time that i encounter such monsters. WHY?WHY?WHY?WHICH PART OF THE DRESSING IS NICE?OR EVEN JUST PLEASING TO THE EYE?!?!?!it just irks me to the core tt this hooligans behave in such a socially disgracing manner. They tink they are damn cool, but pls....rub ur faces in some shit!!!!! den it might just only alleviate the situation a little. They seem oblivious to the look of disgust and disdain displayed on the faces of all who saw them. TSK TSK. If I were their mum, seeing them like this would totally send a dagger tru my heart. Just look at how tt moroon is occupying 3 seats?!!! Mind u the train wasn't tt empty. Sam totally wanted to just put his fist into their sickening faces man. oK...I'm turning beserk. I will stop den.
h-a-h-a
these days i'm spending most of my lazy hours reading Dilbert. Thanks to Lynn who reccomended that to me in the library when i was on the mission to borrow some useful self help books...NOT!But seriously, it is really quite funny. But only if you can catch it. Increases my predisposition to sarcasm...which i reckon is bad.
One reason i gather from my experience is that they tink ALL (which is a gross over-generalisation!)university graduates are nothin but employees with a slightly nicer paper than themselves. Like when i asked one of my collegues (remember Duckie from my previous entires?) about some stuff, this tot would cross her mind : Wah, university grad leh...also must ask me?!?!study so much for wat!?! What her little pea brain fail to understand is that some things come with experience. Like how would u expect a newcomer to know how to use the company's system to log in his/her timesheet?!?! I believe even a PHD holder would need help with that!!!! Its exasperating how they discriminate against the uni grads. PLS NOTE that i'm not discriminating against people who graduated form the poly, in fact it is those poly students who excel ultimately in the uni. Seriously they do!They always spoil the market with their EXTRA-ordinary projects!But hello!! dun give us hell next time in the working world out of jealously, inferiority or plain sour grapes!! sheesh
Met up with Sherrlynn at Ikea for dinner and LIGHT shopping. Never bought lesser things before. Only checked out wif a set of scented candles. We were just talking about work and all the politics in it. Sigh.....totally dread working for good when i graduate in a year's time. One perennial problem most interns, like myself, face is the hostility extended to us by some moroons in the company. Like what Joel Teng(i have to specify cos i kindda have many JOELs in my life) shared, most of the poly graduates hate us, the university graduate(or undergraduate in this case). I dunno why, but they seem to tink we will snatch them off their jobs one day.
ok,i'm declaring that i'm posting out of boredom. Dun waste ur time reading on and move on to someonelse's blog.
I love the peace of the night. But there's not much of the day to appreciate anyway, since i wake up in the early evenings. Its just so cooling (ok, its freezingly unbearable with my aircon on at 18degrees!), quiet, and rejuvenating.
It is also the time of the day where i do the most thinkin, the most reflecting, the most soul searching.
Love comforteth like sunshine after rain.
- William Shakespeare -
had a sumptous steamboat with the gals at my place this evening. Its really so much more meaningful and cheaper when u DIY.
Glad that we had the talk. Kindda cleared some misudnerstandings. Hope this friendship of ours would last. Cheers!
Didn't manage to take pics, there was a vehement reaction when i suggested taking photos. Those vain bitches were all in spectacles and outta-the-bed hair, thus the violent objection to have that "hideous" moment captured.
Dead beat tired. Woke up at 7am (which is a huge contrast to the noon timings which i wake up from my slumber usually!) today....totally spent. Sorry Plutz, Josh, and Damien..could make it to Centro wif u guys!
oK...till i have something more interesting in my life to share, goodnight world....
Was clearin out the storeroom for my stuff, haven had time to clear my "trash" since i moved back from hall.
Found this old notebook amongst my books.
In memory of my relationship with joel..this is a poem he wrote..for me.
Getting over you is never easy. You must have hated me for leaving you with a reason that hardly seems valid to you. I never wanted things to be this way too, much less end this way. Once again, I'm sorry....
The way to love anything
is to realize that it might be lost.
went to SSDC to book my advance theory test. Mine previous one expired last month!!!!!!!!!!ARGH!!!!!
Anyone who knows of a good and effective pte driving instructor, do me a favour and drop me his (never known of a female instructor, hence the musculine reference)number pls.
Now I have to go tru the arduous process of taking the test and waiting for the results and bookin the practical exam dates blah blah........
Still deciding whether to take my lessons in the school or pte. My only concern with private lessons is that one would only seem to pass after the 3rd attempt?!?! Which by then is equivalent to clearin on the first try in school! Dilemna...
Hope i can clear by the next school semester. Would be so much easier driving to school.
Having yet another house party this weekend. I dunno why but my parents, esp my mum seem to enjoy hosting guests alot nowadays. And i'm the one doing the cleaning up after that.
To the world you may be one person,
but to one person you may be the world.
arranging a get tog wif the gals...
its harder and harder to get everyone tog. Gone are the days where coming together needs no reason other than enjoying the company of one another.Nowadays, planning a get together seems even more tricky than planning an AGM. Unless the reason is valid, otherwise the attendance is dismal. Its kindda sad when a friendship comes to that stage.
It takes both hands to clap. This sayin is never more true in this circumstance.
Today is july 7th. Its been exactly 2 yrs since i ended my last relationship. Its dates like this i can rememeber, but not dates like when my sch is starting! I would be lying tru my teeth if I say I have COMPLETELY gotten over Joel. I just cant explain the special feelin that endears him to me so much. I should really try to move on.
it is not an easy task as it might seem.
Are some of us in some "cliques" out of obligation? out of acceptance? out of admiration?
I think so.
finally the complete pic wif caline and candice
cozing in my cove...
gals of 1983....
navTEENS..tho many are no longer in the "teens"! stay young always:)
had my party yesterday...was too tired to post.
A BIG THANK YOU TO ALL PRESENT AND THE PRESENTS!!
christine: u still as 38 as 6 years ago on the netball court man! Meet up with the rest of the SIA teammates man...
xier, pam, chloe, joel, ailin, caline, , limin, candice: thanks for being there all these years....
angeline: thanks for making it down even tho ure rushin off someplace...catch up in sch wif the rest of the fantastic biz com class!
ver: THANKS FOR HELPING! wif the cake and coordination! u have been lovely!
i'm embarking on a exercise regime with lynn and doreal...to get ourselves back to shape. Note i didn't say IN shape, but BACK to shape.for myself at least...i'm growing in girth!! not height!!! shucks!!!!!!
some frens were tellin me yest that after i pass the 21st mark, its gonna be downhill from then on. I dunno, but I kindda beg to differ.Shouldn't it be the prime of our lives? After that, we would be climbing the corporate ladder, earning the big bucks, then getting married, having children, and den die. The truely downturn to me is after marriage. Dunno why, but i just have a very jaded picture painted of the institution of marriage.
Oh well, i'm drifting way out of point here..
Here are some shoutouts to my pals present yesterday:
kelvin: Its been great catching up with you! really glad that u came despite being the only one from tjc!! haha...wat a changed person u have become. Your exuberance just endears you to many!
navteens: happy seeing you guys yesterday. Its been a long while. Hope to get the photos out to all of you soon!sorry i wasn't a better host :(
ok..if i left out anyone..pls do not think u r not appreciated or wat...but there's just so many things to say ...
will be posting some of the pics here, so u can copy and paste if u want.
had my party yesterday...was too tired to post.
A BIG THANK YOU TO ALL PRESENT AND THE PRESENTS!!
christine: u still as 38 as 6 years ago on the netball court man! Meet up with the rest of the SIA teammates man...
xier, pam, chloe, joel, ailin, caline, , limin, candice: thanks for being there all these years....
angeline: thanks for making it down even tho ure rushin off someplace...catch up in sch wif the rest of the fantastic biz com class!
ver: THANKS FOR HELPING! wif the cake and coordination! u have been lovely!
i'm embarking on a exercise regime with lynn and doreal...to get ourselves back to shape. Note i didn't say IN shape, but BACK to shape.for myself at least...i'm growing in girth!! not height!!! shucks!!!!!!
some frens were tellin me yest that after i pass the 21st mark, its gonna be downhill from then on. I dunno, but I kindda beg to differ.Shouldn't it be the prime of our lives? After that, we would be climbing the corporate ladder, earning the big bucks, then getting married, having children, and den die. The truely downturn to me is after marriage. Dunno why, but i just have a very jaded picture painted of the institution of marriage.
Oh well, i'm drifting way out of point here..
Here are some shoutouts to my pals present yesterday:
kelvin: Its been great catching up with you! really glad that u came despite being the only one from tjc!! haha...wat a changed person u have become. Your exuberance just endears you to many!
navteens: happy seeing you guys yesterday. Its been a long while. Hope to get the photos out to all of you soon!sorry i wasn't a better host :(
ok..if i left out anyone..pls do not think u r not appreciated or wat...but there's just so many things to say ...
will be posting some of the pics here, so u can copy and paste if u want.
today is my birthday.
Hope tmw's party would be alright. Although some people would be coming in late and some leaving early, i hope i can at least get a snap shot with everyone present.
Goin to be mtgin some old frens tmw. Cant wait to catch up with them.
Many used to tell me:"wow! the whole of America is celebrating your birthday with you!"
Well...i dun feel really honoured or wat..bcos the whole of America do not know that they are celebrating my bdae..so wats the big deal.
people are so busy these days...even on a sunday.Isn;t it Sabbath?!? Why do people have to work on sunday?!?
my prized possession
my work officially ended yesterday!! F-R-E-E-D-O-M finally!!!!!!!
Just found out that some of my old friends are goin to get married soon or are already married. It just astounds me how people are willing to sell away their freedom so early. I think in my opinion...one should only get married AFTER and only AFTER 30. Who gives a damn abt babies?!? But perhaps they have found the TRUE love and the ONE. But is it really so....?
My great chums got me a Philippe Starck watch for my bdae! It the watch which i have been yearning for since it first came out!! Thanks verlyna, caline, candice, Ailin, joel, Xier and Chloe!!!!
at last i can just wake up with no agenda for the day, just laze around with a good book. Simply having no worries about deadlines.
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