Firstly, its the 311 presentation. A slip of tongue and a very picky tutor ruined my hopes of pulling my grades to an A.

Next, the most embarrassing and devastating incident in my 3 years in Business School.

ITS THE END FOR ME.

Never before had I fumbled in my presentations. Be it speaking in front of an audience of 100, or engaging a class in an impromptu discussion. It was never a problem for me. Today, I wasn't even nervous before the presentation. In fact, I even mentioned to my teammate that I was surprisingly calm.

I have no idea what came over me at that point in time...even now, I still stare blankly at space, stupefied as I recount that fateful aftnoon.

Somehow, I thank God for this painful lesson. It is indeed a humbling one.

Also, another thought occured to me as I did my QT tonight. I never really relied on God. I tot I could do it on my own. I tot I was sufficient on my own.

In the midst of rushing for the reports and presentations this week, I have simply forgotten about Him. Rushing to close up the gap on my study timetable, squeezing in as much as I can into my 24hrs, sometimes even at the expense of my QT and bedtime prayers, (cos I fell asleep on the bed with my book and pens open, radio and lights on!)I took everything on my own stride

I tried to accomplish everything with my own human strength. I tot I could.

But I'm wrong.

I feel deserted and alone. I really question what am I doing all this for??

Somehow, i feel immensely lonely. Despite having so many friends, there is a resounding emptiness in me. Could it be that God is no longer in there?